Good Morning Everyone,

Today it is quiet in my house, on mornings like this I cherish the quietness, listening to the fish tanks running their water, and having my morning coffee in peace. In just a few Willy will be and ready to start his busy day. Last Saturday my grandmother past away, today is her funeral, my heart is heavy and sad. Willy will be staying with my MIL (mother-in law) while we are at the funeral. After that Willy gets to see his sister for a play date for an hour. We will be doing those at least once to twice a week. This will help in determining if the two siblings will be able to live with each other. There is a lot of background to that, however I am not at liberty to discuss it at this time. We have done so many awesome things, We have learned that Willy is a complete fish in the water, he loves water. Whitefish was amazing, he did so well at the Condo and he can't wait to go again. He went on his first Hike in Glacier and he was such a great kid, only a couple of times he scared me!!!! But then again I guess that is me being over protected. We have lots of pictures that I have put on the digital picture frame and we have to get some blown up and framed so that we can put them on the walls in our home!!!! The experience of being his "mommy" has totally changed my perspective as a parent and as a person. The bond that Nathan and Willy have is so special that sometimes I feel a little left out. I know over time that will change. He definitely has grown a lot in his 5 weeks with us. We are having less outbursts in bad behavior and more awesome behaviors. I believe he is starting to get to where he can trust us and know that we are here for him. That "NO HARM" will be done to him. Potty training this week as been great only a few accidents. He is really blossoming, words can't describe what the first few weeks were like. It was definitely trying. I wouldn't change it for the world. We are so blessed to be his

 "mommy and daddy".

Fertility or Foster Parenting

As of February of 2012 we decided that fertility treatments were going to be to expensive, and it was brought to our attention that there are so many children that need home, love, and most importantly a family to call their own. After a lot of heartaches and tears that the realization of being biological parents may not happen it was really hard to grasp and understand. How is that so many women can have children with out any issues, but struggle even taking care of them, have bad habits, and I have other feelings that maybe I shouldn't share only because I might offend them. So as of March 2012 we started doing foster parenting classes, I felt so at home and knew that God was pointing us in the right direction. We received our license in July and have looked at so many files to make sure that it will be a perfect match. We did accept several children  however things fell through. We looked at this file with a little girl and boy, however we just didn't think that we could take both. Until March when we received a call saying as of right now it would only be the little boy and the girl would join our home in 6-8 months after the little boy was placed into our home. We recently got our match to the most amazing and wonderful 4 year old boy. The struggles that this little guy has had in his life is just heart wrenching. The first few weeks of placement were really tough, he tested boundaries, hitting, kicking, spitting, throwing things, these are just a few of the behaviors that was being displayed by our son. All the parenting classes we went through honestly didn't prepare us for the actually reality of handling a troubled child. 
     As the weeks have moved on and we are into our first month his behaviors have slowly diminished, although we still are seeing the hitting, kicking etc. We are finally bonding and working towards attachments. We have had so many first, like first camp out in the backyard, fire pit, smores, swimming in the hot tub at my parents, using the urinal at the restaurant  He has truly been a gift from God, he is such a wonderful little guy that we are so blessed to have into our home. He has truly filled that void that we have been missing in our life. I know it has been awhile since I posted on here, this is my promise that I will continue to write more.